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Alright... so everything not including my job is kinda -- hard. Socially, school issues.. romantically. Quite hard. I called Matt G for the first time in about 2 months (where he started not returning my calls) just to see if he'd pick up for once. He did - I said "Hello Matt" and there was a pause - and he said, "no.. this is his brother Jared..." I know it wasn't Jared. I know it was him. Jared doesn't sound anything like that. So I think to myself... fine. I give up on him forever then... which sucks of course to be blown of like that. Then there's this guy at school named Jacob who I want to physically harm. He's this total asshole who is also pleasantly racist and rude. He's focusing on me on my friend Kathy...talking about us behind our backs, insulting us when we talk... oh and how funny that we haven't done a damn thing to him yet Kathy is half black/half white and I hang out with her all the time... what an ass. I hate him. I hate him so terribly and I've never hated someone so desperately. That in itself is making school hard... I can't wait until he's gone. I've filed a complaint with the administration and I've had 3 conferences with Chef Harris and Chef Hawley... I hate being angry at school. Makes is definitely difficult to work and learn. Drains my energy too. And then Danny. I won't go into it here because that feels inappropriate... but I'm just so sorry. It's a hard situation. And I know it's not fair and I've been difficult to work with and compromise with.. and I'm sorry. All that and my aunt's kinda upset because since my uncle's been maniacally working on the book and not really paying attention to her, and I'm never really home, she feels kinda overwhelmed with her job, keeping up with the house and supporting me and my uncle. So today she took off to the tulip opening in Tacoma to relax and get away from it all. So I feel pretty bad about that... But I got a promotion at work. My mom and I actually talked today. And.. yeah. That's about all I have going for me. Yuck.
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