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I'm scared again. He's sent me 9 e-mails in the past 3 days. A bunch more phone calls. It's like he's just starting over again, and I'm baffled because it's not like I'm home alone again. Everyone's here. I'm not alone. Everyone's watching. His car was parked at the restuarant. I saw it, and just drove on by and didn't look. It's little things like that.. I'm uneasy again. I'm feeling sick again. Looking over my shoulder again, turning the lights on in a room before my body even goes in. I so hate this. I can't wait to get back to LA. I was gonna crash at Casey's house again tonight, but backed out at the last minute because I have work early... now I completely regret that decision because I'm sitting here feeling rather uneasy and cold, and pretty lonely. Arrrgghh to being responsible... arrgghh.
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