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2003-08-20 - I'm tired.

Weird state of mind. I really feel like I have the ability RIGHT NOW to write something that's heartfelt, amazing, and somehow awe-inspiringly gorgeous... but instead I'm a tad clouded by tiredness and some sudden frustration.

I want to come back to LA. Damn.

A certain welcome home present from that certain someone was at my waking, and as usual, scary.. and I'm realizing after a 15 hour work day today, that I'm tired. Kinda tired of school, kinda tired of work. Just tired. I have such success and I should truly feel blessed that I'm doing so well and how I'm on the right track; but it comes at this heavy price of making me jaded and kinda cynical. Like I said before, I'm a bit of a cunt now. I guess that also comes with some esteem.

Meh. This is all irrelevant.

I miss you guys out in Agoura.. I didn't even get to say goodbye to a couple of people. Yarr.

I need nappy... love you guys...

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