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::slams head against the wall, screaming to the computer screen:: Oh man, I feel like I'm on a mission from fucking God here. Just as passionate too. It's obvious to me... its like watching a man walk over to a pit of quicksand saying how cool and fun it looks. Obvious to me how horrible an idea this is... perhaps not so apparent to the other party because it looks like fun. I love him more than anyone will ever know and yes, perhaps I am a bit protective too. I just can't deal with this one. Anyone but, you know? Gah! Mutual adoration doesn't cut it when you want to start a relationship. Trust, communication, solidarity, courage, compromise, pain. You grow up a little bit together, not go backwards or settle for what JUST makes you happy. You learn from the pain, not just get over it and not care. Pain is a warning sign, not something that you dismiss. If you dismiss it, you learn nothing, you stay a kid forever. You stay as gullible as a child, forever. You get walked on, forever. Yes, it is that important. You make the right decisions based on self esteem and your idea of whats healthy... not just on what feels "ok." Don't be a kid forever. Stand up for yourself! Love yourself enough to want more than just being the next man in line... love yourself more than just settling for someone 400 miles away who proves to be a tad ... wreckless and impulsive and who reeeeaaaallly needs to be single for a while. I give this so much attention because I see a very unfair sitch. I love you, I want you to be happy. I can't make anyone do anything. I just try so hard to make things clearer, or explain the logic when the emotion is pointing in the way wrong direction... I am pretty sure I'm right. I feel so justified. I want to help. I want to be heard, and nodded at while thinking "yeah, she does have a point..." It's not that I know better. It's that I'm in a better position of understanding and logic. Oi vay.
Alright. This is as far as I can go. *climbs off the soapbox after pitching flyers and banners into the crowd*
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