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I haven't updated this damn thing in 46 days. Damn. I would have to say, that so far, 2004 pretty much blows the way I feared it would. The restaurant may be sold leaving me out of a job, Christmas bills are starting to roll in, and the relationship potentially on the rocks. Breakdown is over, though. I decided it was time to be a grown-up, and deal. And deal, goddamnit, I will do. I need to start calling everyone too. School started up again which is kinda killing me -- as since we've lost 3 people at work I'm somehow managing to work overtime, despite the fact that 50 hours a week is already going into my full-time program. Stunning. Absolutely stunning. It's getting hard to communicate, I think, because I'm slowly becoming bitter. I'm going to be 20 this year. Do I ever go out? Do I have time off to go relax with the friends, see movies, do nails? Write in online diaries everyday? No... I'm up at 4:30 in the morning 5 days a week to get to school to work in a hot kitchen for grades and a profession, then I go straight back to the island and work another 8 hours at the restauant. And then I go to bed.. only to seemingly re-live that day over and over again. And thanks to good ol' motherfucking george dubya and his decision to cut financial aid to public schools, I'm somehow broke to tuition. Two words are giving me hope right now - Tax.Refund. Hell yeah. One last note - I miss you all and I hope winter break was amazing. Merry Christmas to everyone - and a happy birthday to both marteney and olly...
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