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2004-03-12 - walk in the club at like 10 o'clock

19 days later... this entry could go on forever.

What a life I lead. Good lord.

I have every reason in the world to be happy right now and glad to be alive - and every reason in the world to cry. Isn't it ironic?

Good:

I've been promoted (again) at work to the Sous Chef - as in, I own. As in - mass mula for the awesome culinary prodigy that is me. As in -- I am second in command in my kitchen - scheduling, shaking hands with customers, a fucking COOL coat that's pressed that has my name and title embroidered in it... and the list goes on. This is amazing. I swear, I'm gonna own this place one day at this rate.

Good:

I just finished my 3rd quarter of school and now - 3 left. I'm a 3.6 gpa average and have been offered a couple of scholarships - sweet ass.

Good:

Two of my very, very dear friends told me in privacy that they are to be married (!) next summer - which is fucking amazing. Another cool thing about this: I get to do the wedding cake. Hoowah!

Good:

I've managed to get to acupuncture appointments every thursday night - which has almost completely relieved me of migraines and a pinched nerve. I'm not waking up with headaches anymore - or having to pull over on the road to bury my head in a blanket and O.D. Very cool.

Good:

I'm gonna be interviewed and have a profile done for the Vashon newspaper in a couple of weeks declaring that I own at the resturaunt.

Potentially bad and probably life threatening:

Smoking level at an all-time high. Oi vay.

Bad? -

Broke up with Casey yesterday. sigh. *smoke smoke smoke*

Kiiiinda sorta sucks:

Now that I'm a sous chef - I have an estimated 6 zillian new responsibilities including hiring, food costing, paperwork and more hours. At the end of the week - I feel like I've been beaten Jesus-style.

[good = the money is seductive and fucking GOOD]

Overall - socially I suck balls, I'm a horrible friend and haven't responded really - to anyone.

Danny, Krystal and folks: I still love you. I miss you - and I'm hereby declaring that I will try harder..

P.S. - Ladies (and even fellas') - go buy the book "Cunt - a declaration of independence" by inga muscio. It is so fucking good it makes me love the word "cunt" more than I already do, which is mind-boggling.

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